I often forget to be grateful for my health when I am busy enduring everyday life- working, trying to sleep, paying bills, running errands.. And then BOOM. Suddenly I'm sick.. and I can't manage to do the most basic of human tasks (like showering, changing clothes, feeding myself)..and I think.."I really should be more grateful I am usually healthy."
I am not a pretty sick person. Or a patient sick person. My sister would probably tell me it's my immune system forcing me to slow down. Take a time out. But this is a little ridiculous. Now I can suffer through a cold with the best of them...they are annoying but I still manage to get everything done.. However this week I was hit with the dreaded influenza.. and that's a different story. I haven't been able to move off the couch or my bed since Tuesday (it's now Friday night). It has made me so weak that even getting up to let the dogs out is exhausting. The fever gives me sweats and chills and interrupts my sleep. And the cough makes my throat feel like it's constricting with every breath. Not only do I feel sorry for myself when I am sick, but because I am a mom, I also feel sorry for my child. Praying she doesn't catch this (because I didn't remember to get her flu shot this year) and feeling guilty that I have no energy to put in her direction. Thankfully she is pretty self-sufficient these days. She is potty trained. She can dress herself. She can turn on the TV. She can find snacks in the cupboard. She knows not to open the door to strangers. She understands that I am sick. Still there is guilt. Thankfully my folks took her on her their day off (and got her that flu shot)...and they brought us medicine, food, did our dishes and changed our sheets (three trips out to Fox Island in one week is one for the record books for them)
Tomorrow, whether I am ready or not, I have to go back to work. Let's hope I wake up with the energy to get through my shift..
This is a video Grace made today to wish our friend Amy a happy birthday.